Madina

They say it is hot and crowded over there this summer. And It's been almost a year since my last visit to Madina. The next few days I'll be there inshallah. I think I'll meet many Turks and Iranian who don't speak either Arabic or English and I would feel lost again, like last year :p

Stock of Dreams...

As I look over the pages of my diary, written in different coloured inks in a notebook with a black paper cover, memories invade me, abrubtly and unexpectedly.. Suddenly on that sunny path, with a memory of the rain.. In some pages, I had a funny feeling that I was reading a younger version of myself with all her childish thoughts and silly dreams. A pair of diamond earrings, live in the Middle ages, be a friend to my favorite writer...etc.

In other pages, I wrote about some people who will be always dearly remembered, "S" who could tell a great deal about people from their photographs, "R" who would finish my sentences for me, long interesting conversations I always had with "D", "M" who shared me many showers under rain.. dearly beloved memories.

It's been a long time since I last wrote something here. So here I am again, my dear void..

Note#2

- Sometimes I think that overusing and misusing the word "Love" is just meaningless and inappropriate. I have heard and seen some people who use the word for reason and for nothing! It makes the word with no value and meaning..How much better it would be if we, like the Greeks, have different words for each kind of love so that misunderstandings could be avoided and the overusing of the L word could be less. But since we don't, I think it is best if two people try to use other words than the L word when describing their feelings for each other. Words that more accurately describe what they are actually feeling.

- I believe that being a victim of circumstances can be a choice. How we choose to respond to our situation makes us either a victim or a survivor.

- I believe some of the most memorable events are hidden somewhere in my head because I have forgotten to jot them down or maybe I just did that on purpose..?

- People come into our lives for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When we figure out which it is, we'll know exactly what to do next.

The Reason

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is ...You

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is ...You
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Note #1

Sometimes..
Being yourself is not a good thing

Unfortunately..
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Eid Mubarak and Happy New Year
Very late.. My dear Void..