Just Waiting

Last weekend went by quickly and so many things happened. I'm undecieded about so many things right now. This causes daily confusion, but it is an uncomfortable feeling that I really need. It is the only thing that keeps me standing on my toes - Living- , choosing and moving carefuly towards whatever is calling me.

Just like the seasons , I'm in between. I can say something is started to be an issue and I'm extremely busy with the personal and proffessional changes I'm passing through. There are opportunities and options popping up all over, more to come but still...

Some days you feel up..Some days you feel down..Some days you just feel ...nothing!

Tomorrow's another day.

It's a...

Do you ever have one of those moments where you just can't think of the right thing to say, but you know the perfect song to express what you are feeling?? that's where I am.

Wallah I Don't have much to say today, there is , as usual, much to worry and write about, but i'm just not in the mood..going to sleep soon.

This is just a test
to see if I can add link to posts :P

I just came back home half an hour ago, so tired and sleepy. I might add new post later.

Talking to Dear "Void"

Yesterday, I was arguing when this old woman I work with used some "big words". They may not seem that big to other people, but the way she talked while discussing unusual subjects seemed so natural, like if she is using those words everyday.Fact is, it made me a little bit jealous.I don't want to be words king, great lecturer or special person ,it's just that it makes me feel like I often use the same small boring words over and over again " I just did it ". It would be wonderful to have a pile of unique words to choose from whenever I need to, for an important reason, just to prove to myself that all my reading and writing is paying off.

This is not about impressing anyone with complicated conversation, just about challenging myself to build some skills.

When I was student, I had that kind of silent nature and somewhere along the way, I stopped asking questions. I debate, but mostly in my head, not loud, and not often to anyone else. I just search and read, read and search, finding more and more new stuff, but not stopping long enough to ask why? how? with whom? where? what? Not stopping to process, decide or act. It's bad, I know it is.

Next month, I will be having tough time at work. Nowadays, I'm working on a project that often sets me off.

Goodnight dear void.

Day 1 of Not Sleeping at noon

After months of practicing the habit of taking a nap during the daytime, which is a healthy habit, I suppose, I didn't sleep today and now it's almost midnight and I have not slept YET.

Energy feels boundless, no need for food. My six senses fight, hearing colors, smelling sounds, etc.The funny thing that is I noticed alot of absurd and useless stuff clanking around in my head. Some I have memorized over the years for fun, or because they remind me with nice situations and some are from movies I have watched, other I used to repeat over and over again so I can't get rid of them .

More than 13 Lyrics to Disney's movies : Toy Story, Shrek, Beauty and the Beast, Finding Nemo...etc
"No one can make you feel Inferior without your consent" I often repeat it in my heart :p
The Lyric for The GodFather theme
The Lyric for Captin Corilli's Mandolin movie
One paragraph of "Al-bo7'alaa" book by Othman ben Ba7r Al-ja7eth
One scene of The Patriot by Mel Gibson
" Have you ever felt that you are the worst version of yourself ? "

Silly ! I know...

It just keeps myself company when I get lonely. Actually, it's the first time for me to use this nice blog and just wanted to drop some words for good and thank a friend of mine who gave me the link, so thank you.

Have not finished a single chore today. in short, I lost the "Sunday" of this week.

Prayer

Ya Allah...Make me an instrument of goodness,WATCH OVER ME.where there is injury,let me sow forgive,where there is sadness, joy,where there is doubt, faith,where there is despair,hope.AMEEN