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No More Dress Up

Whenever people introduce me to someone by telling them how much I read I feel like I’m on display and that people are expecting me to come out with a couple of quick book reviews while wallah I am really a normal reader ..I mean .. Sometimes I take very long reading one book..It depends on my moods and motives. Like recently, I took TWO MONTHS reading two books and no feeling like reading so far.

The most dreaded question is : So, how many books do you read a month?

It’s like if I have a bald patch on the top of my head and someone has just asked me to take off my hat.

Quick, they’re staring at you! Will they ‘get it’ or think you’re stupid?

-- Well, it depends . My reading is dictated by my moods. So it can vary.

-So, a book a week?

--Yeah, or maybe more.

-Two? Three?

--Really, it depends. Can’t really say. Some books are quick reads and others take a while.

- Four? Five?

--No no I guess 2 or so. I read more than one book at a time.

-Wow.

--It’s no big deal, really.

-That’s a lot.

--I don't know.. I just like to read.

My Wallet

I’ve lost my dark brown wallet.

This upsets me for a couple of reasons:
a. It was a gift;
b. It has my name on it and I had both business & personal cards in it.
So, clearly someone could return it and I’ve not heard from anyone.



Why some people SUCK ?! *



*and not in a good way

Self Confidence Or Competence ?!

My sister "N" said something to me last night that got me thinking. She said, "You shouldn't judge your level of competence by other people's accomplishments" She is so incredibly right. Why do we look at what other's have done, or what they know, and let it remind ourselves what we don't know, or haven't done? Why is it so hard for me to be proud of my level of education, proud of my career choices, proud of my abilities to learn new things myself, pick beautiful clothes :p, instead of constantly feeling as though I don't measure up to -some- others? Is this inherent human nature? Are those feelings part of our instinct to strive for achievement? Certainly points to ponder.


I wonder, if I didn't have feelings of inadequacy sometimes, would I would strive to better myself?

Is anyone at work today ?

Anyone ?
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It's empty here.
very empty.

Because I Don't Know...

My cousin "S" tells me that I should be prepared to deal with a lot of teasing if I start blogging again. Perhaps she’s right, but the fear of a little teasing shouldn’t be the thing that keeps me away, right? Plus, in all honesty, I don’t fear the teasing. I can take it though. you know, it’s like five course meals sometimes.

But that’s not the thing. The thing is that once I make a decision, I like it to stick. The problem is that I miss being able to write here. Is the missing true though? Or have I just not let the habit pass through my system?

This is what I don’t know. I hate not knowing.

I also hate being so quiet among people, it's like I'm so wise person that alrrazanah would come out of my nose !!

The one had nothing to do with the other except these are the two things I was just thinking about on this early thursday morning.

That and
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Does anyone know where can I find the last season of The Gilmore Girls on DVD here in Jeddah? I do believe I have the first three seasons memorized by now and I’m quite ready to move on. I am just in love with this show...

Need I say more?